Thursday, October 15, 2015

31 Days of Infertility...Day 04 - Confidence

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31 Days of Infertility Day 04 - Confidence

One of my passages to study today was Hebrews 4:16 "Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."

It's very tempting to depend on the science and technology aspect when TTC.  But Psalms 118:8 is clear,  "It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in humans."

I don't know Dr. Mark.  I don't know the science of this journey.  But I know that I need to keep my focus on God's Plan for us and not the science and technology or the BFP I want.  As much as I desire to be a mother, there is no guarantee.  That is why I must focus my confidence in God's Plan and not the results.  

It gives me great peace to know that God has a plan for me even though it may or may not be motherhood.  How can I be a peace with that?  I want a baby!  I desire a baby!  But I don't find peace in those desires, I find anxiety.  I find peace in focusing my attention on God and just relying on his word to get us through this journey.

I pray for God to continue to grace me with his peace and comfort.  I pray that my confidence remains focused on what God is doing in our lives and not the science and technology of this.  I know that I would not have this opportunity if God hadn't picked me up from a very dark and lonely place.  I praise Him every day for finding me, saving me, and leading me here.  

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