Monday, November 9, 2015

Hurry Up and Wait...

When you're TTC with MFI, I've come to find out there is a lot of waiting...and I hate waiting!  I inherited that impatience from my dad as my mother has the patience of Job himself.  Every day I have so many unanswered questions!  I was lucky enough to happen across the Community Boards at where I've found solace with thousands of other women going through MFI.  Some have female infertility issues, some have no issues at all!  There is a community of women who share my same situation and it is such a comfort to know I'm not alone.  I mean....of course I'm not alone, I have Daddy Bun right here with me on this journey.  I even have some supportive friends and family who know what we are going through....but I don't have a woman, an infertility friend, someone who is on the same journey as me, someone struggling with getting pregnant for the very same reasons...until now.

These ladies can help with questions and concerns and share advice on ways to cope.  They share stories of hope and failure, they share what has worked and what has not.  Have you ever heard the saying "Been there, done that?"  Well some of them have been there, done that, bought the t-shirt and are writing a reference manual they've been there THAT long.

The newbies waiting for an IUI or IVF transfer are called benchwarmers because we are standing by waiting for a call or a test or a "Go" from the RE.  When I was in school, I was a perpetual couldn't get me to run a mile if you put a chocolate cake at the finish line (and I LOVE CAKE).  I would have been the last person picked for any team that is FOR SURE!  SO here I sit, warming the bench again, waiting for my time, waiting in the line.

The song Waiting Line by Zero 7 is the lyrics featured above.  This is another Garden State soundtrack song, and that soundtrack is by far one of my all time favorites.  It's just another musical example of how I feel warming the bench...a motionless wheel, wasting time, in the waiting line.

Now is the time I should be practicing that patience!