Monday, November 2, 2015

Philippians 4:8

I got a birthday card today from the ladies at the office with Philippians 4:8 on it and it was the PERFECT day to receive that card.  God places people in your life for a reason and He has a way to put me back into the proper perspective when I start to fall back into darkness, especially by using those around me.  I was feeling very sad and unfocused today and these were the exact words I needed to read to put everything back in place for me.  A reminder that I need not dwell on the mistakes of my past and I should instead focus on the good that surrounds me.  

That's right y'all.  It's my birthday today and I'm 36 years old.  Did you know starting around age 35 women start having cycles where they don't release an egg?  No egg =  no baby.  

Some other increased risks for those TTC after 35 include:

  • Miscarriage
  • Down’s syndrome and other genetic disorders
  • premature delivery
  • Twins
  • Delivery by c-section

I have to say it's hard to smile at those risks.  It's hard to think "Happy Birthday" when you're hitting that age bracket.  So just in time, I received that card to remind me not to focus on the the negatives, focus on the POSITIVES!

I read those words, big and colorful and think wow, NONE of that is me at all.  True, honest, lovely...nope not this girl.  I think...I will always be a failure, I will not succeed and I don't even deserve to succeed.  But I have to refocus those negative feelings and emotions, I have to accept that YES I DO DESERVE TO SUCCEED, push aside the negativity, think on the good things.   

So this birthday I will think on lovely things, I will think on joyful things, I will think of good things!